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Close questioning

Published on
17th April 2019

Grace Patrick went and watched – and felt anger

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I saw a man standing on a stage, telling us about a woman who he had loved and lost.

I saw two male musicians supporting the telling of his story.

 

I didn’t see the woman.

I didn’t hear the woman.

I certainly didn’t hear the woman’s side of the story.

I don’t know if the woman is real.

If she is, I don’t know if she knows this story is being told.

 

I held a drink in my hand, and I felt it go warm as the man on stage returned, over and over again, to points in his story where heavy drinking felt like the only option.

I heard him recognise how ingrained in student culture alcohol has become, and I didn’t hear him question that. This story is all told with the genius of hindsight, and yet the critique of himself is limited.

So many times, I heard him place this unnamed woman on a pedestal.

I heard that she liked to read.

I heard that she gave him a book.

I heard she often lit incense.

I heard that he loved her and that she didn’t love him, I couldn’t feel sorry for him.

I heard that she was leaving the country for six months, and I couldn’t feel sorry for him.

I heard that he could barely leave his bed, and I couldn’t feel sorry for him.

 

It’s not her job to fix him. She didn’t offer.

 

As the play kept going, I felt anger.

I felt anger for all the people performing emotional labour that they didn’t offer to undertake.

I felt anger that her inability to be his anchor was framed as a tragedy on his part.

How can he be a victim of a crime that didn’t happen?

 

Who was this for?

What were they meant to feel?

What was I meant to feel?

Why?

I don’t know what I was supposed to learn, or what I was supposed to take away.

 

I don’t know anything about the woman at the heart of the story, and I don’t trust the narrator.

 

I don’t have a lot more to say.


@noffmag / noff@nsdf.org.uk

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