I am not what I want to be
something to pity can always be found, but
I am strong I endure
and pain is dressed up in the bloodied thread, within which I am woven
to mean something.
I am flushed crimson, like a womb clawed,
with sex There comes a grotesque double
and if you love me I will take your breath, shred it like confetti,
I will throw you on my bed, and rest in peace—I will shock you into
loving my reflection— hiding within other faces
Are me and you lost to ourselves—
true to each other Only when we lie naked
Are we something more— are we less than hopeless:
Are we endless.
I am you and you are Me waiting to be engulfed by regret
Beyond my dreams of high-definition loss.
You can read me down—stripped. You can see across the divide. You can be bold. You can see everything. You can understand that this was hard to write. You can give up.
Maybe I should be silent. Maybe I must speak to feel. Or stop feeling. Maybe I’ve been writing in circles.
Maybe only the heart ever rouses.
Definitely Fine’s You Will See Everything is hugely provocative and evocative. It is immersive. It is the perfect blending of all the best qualities of theatre and film. It is poetic. It is not a metaphor. It is true. It should be seen. It affects you.
The creative team have beautifully sought to protect their audiences too, working in association with The Grief Network—please use their resources and, as the writer of this incredible piece stated in the Q&A, know you are not alone.
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